Am I Perfect Yet?

No matter how many times I reassure myself it keeps coming back
Back for more

They say its ridiculous
But they have no idea

So I say welcome to the game
Hope you know how to play

Its all about who can go the farthest
Who can last the longest
Who can disappear the fastest

Are you ready to begin?
I've been playing for so long
I haven't forgot the rules
I'm ready to start this charade

Open your mind to a place you never imagined
A place where your nightmares are alive
Where perfection is the only name
All you need to do is open that door
Then you can let it in

Take my word,
This will be like nothing you have experienced before

Those you used to call weak now you see how strong they really are
Those you called the freaks you see how human they must be
Those you looked down upon, now they are looking down on you

Your life was so whole before you came down those stairs
Now you push everyone away
They don't understand what has become of you
What you are dong behind their backs
Why you hide behind those closed doors

They tell you to walk away from it all
But it just won't let up
It has become you
And it's everything to you

They had to look away
Your pain was too much to take in

But you held your breath and let out a cry
You just wanted to be perfect
To be the best you could be

They were afraid that you might fade into the light
So they closed their eyes
And cried at night
Because your pain was too much to take in


Your life was so whole before you came down those stairs
Now you push everyone away
They don't understand what has become of you
What you are dong behind their backs
Why you hide behind those closed doors

They tell you to walk away from it all
But it just won't let up
It has become you
And it's everything to you

I can't tell them my truth
Because they tell me its all lies
I just wanted to make my dreams come true
I wanted to be beautiful
I wanted to tell them what I really had to say
But I couldn't get it out

So I clenched my hands and fell down
It was my own
I was cold and broken
But I couldn't walk away


I've been at this too long
It was new to them
Old to me
I didn't mean for them to cry for me
I tricked myself into thinking they had no clue
But they knew too well
No matter how much I told them I was fine
They couldn't understand
They told me to walk away from it all
But it just won't let up
It has become me
And it's everything to me
Ana.

- Gray