Take Me

Titled Take Me by Ariel Gray

I'll stay here for awhile
Let the feeling set in

I stare back at it
As I fall down and fumble a bit
It's alright -
It's happened before
All the time

I let it happen
Once to try
Twice even if I don't like it
Three times because I have no control
Four times, don't give up on me

I crave it
I need it
It's just a series
A line up of shorts

I picked it all up again
I got it all back -
Now I can't hear you
And you won't answer back
Because of the way I am

I don't have much to say
It's all yesterday to me
It's the way that I am

I didn't write this take -
Yeah it has my name on it
A different spelling, but the same name

It's me
Different spelling, but the same name

It's me
Now you know -
All my failures for sale

How I sat there
Red and amazing
So quickly fading
It's just the way that I am

There's that line
The one I straddle
It teeters beneath me
I don't say a word
But you see it
My worth I measure everyday

I hold the device
I know how much or how little
You'll never know
It's not an alphabet for you
I know it backwards
It's out of your reach

I'm not too numb yet
Couldn't get that far -
Oh how I love it there
You wouldn't understand

Its because of all the evil -
Him
Them
You
Me
Her
Us
I don't know how to let it all in
Only the dark
Only pain
That much I can let in

I know how it all happens
How it all comes down
How I always get hurt
Then I forget

I try so hard
But the push came too late
Then I saw you die
And how I was ready for one of us
This day called a funeral

I sat there and watched
Then I realized it wasn't you
It was me -
Un-whole as always
So ashamed
It's my journey now
Just let go

I had one life and it stole me away
I was made of stars and they came falling down
Disappearing like dust

But I let it happen
Once to try
Twice even if I don't like it
Three times because I have no control
Four times, don't give up on me

- Gray (Myself)