They Have All Been Broken

Titled They Have All Been Broken by Ariel Gray

I wish it would come already
I wish it would hit hard

I've been waiting
God knows I'm not helping anything by being this way
So don't tell me to fake it
I've been faking it
This is the best I've got

If you could see inside you'd see how ugly it really is
How much of me is really missing
What I've torn away
Why I set it on that glass edge
When I knew it would fall - shatter
I saw right through to it

Maybe that's why
Why you didn't move
Why it felt so good
As it spilled onto my feet

Our eyes met but you saw nothing
The nothing that is me

It's not alive
It died right here
When all the signs shown round
Because I'm the one that's drowning now

I only saw you
But all I felt was the water moving
As I sank down
And It came up

My lungs breathed in
And I knew it then
You'd never understand
The things I hide inside

And you were so upset
As I saw your eyes one last time
They shown the signs that you saw all around

The water lapping at your feet
I wasn't just asleep as my eyes bowed down

Then you leaned into me
It came back to me
As the water traced my cheeks
It kept on rising

I tried to swim
But I couldn't

The water filled my head
And I prayed that the water would drown out the pain -
Then the beating drum got louder

I went down
And our fingers parted
The noise made such a mighty sound

And you were so upset

And everything I ever wanted
Was falling all around me

Then the curtains closed and the water went black

- Gray (Myself)