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Titled No Title by Ariel Gray

I’ve done this for the last time
Each time I try to let you in
I only fall so far
And how far will I fall until I find there is no bottom

If I was you
I would have done it differently
I would have let you know you were the center of my world
I would have kissed you each night and day
I would have told you how beautiful you are
If I was you
I couldn’t live
Knowing you’re dead
And I made you that way

Now all I see is you
Around every corner
In every pair of eyes
I can’t let them in
Because I think they’re you
And I can’t take one more fall
My knees are already so bruised


If I was you
I would have done it differently
I would have let you know you were the center of my world
I would have kissed you each night and day
I would have told you how beautiful you are
If I was you
I couldn’t live
Knowing you’re dead
And I made you that way

For so long you’ve been standing on my toes
You’ve been waiting for me at night in my dreams
Even though I know I’m stronger than you
I still crack under the hammers that fall and break me to pieces
I’ve just been hoping you would come back to sweep up those pieces
But oh how wrong I’ve been


I’ve done this for the last time
Each time I try to let you in
I only fall so far
And how far will I fall until I find there is no bottom

I wish I could say it
I hope you live a happy life
But you want to know something
You’re the one who fucked me
You’re in every bottle I drink
You’re in every pill I swallow
I hate you so much
The sweat that’s dripping from my palms
I’m shaking so badly
I just want you to know

If I was you
I would have done it differently
I would have let you know you were the center of my world
I would have kissed you each night and day
I would have told you how beautiful you are
If I was you
I couldn’t live
Knowing you’re dead
And I made you that way


-Gray (Myself)